realisation

So yesterday (sunday) there was a Stake priesthood meeting, which I had planned to attend.  However, a friend is having a really difficult time of things right now, and needed to talk, so I stayed home.  It was good to talk to him, but I was sad I didnt get to go to the meeting.  Anywho, when my roommate John got back, he was telling me about one of the talks and how it was about becoming a disciple of Christ.

I've thought before about being a disciple of Christ, and what that means, but it never set into me like this before.  I've been struggling recently (as I've probably displayed too publicly on this very blog) with various things in life (like most people) and I had some sort of realisation/revelation/inspiration.  I realised that my goal in life should be to become a disciple of Christ.  It shouldnt just be getting married, getting good grades, or whatever.  But to become a disciple of Christ--then the rest can follow.  I can't really describe the peace/satisfaction this gave me after quite some time of turmoil.  I still don't know exactly whats in store for me--perhaps I never will get married or have a family.  But I came to realise that if I have a better life goal in mind as I go through the day and throughout my life, then things will turn out for the better--no matter what.

What I really realised I should be like was this:

1. It may not be on the mountain’s height,
   Or over the stormy sea;
   It may not be at the battle’s front,
   My Lord will have need of me;
   But if by a still, small voice He calls,
   To paths that I do not know,
   I’ll answer, dear Lord, with my hand in Thine,
   I’ll go where You want me to go.
   • Refrain:
     I’ll go where You want me to go, dear Lord,
     O’er mountain, or plain, or sea;
     I’ll say what You want me to say, dear Lord,
     I’ll be what You want me to be.
2. There’s surely somewhere a lowly place,
   In earth’s harvest fields so white,
   Where I may labor through life’s short day,
   For Jesus the Crucified;
   So trusting my all to Thy tender care,
   And knowing Thou lovest me,
   I’ll do Thy will with a heart sincere,
   I’ll be what You want me to be.
3. ("I'll Go Where You Want Me to Go")

On a slightly more upbeat note, I GOT MY TICKETS TO ENGLAND!!  I'm leaving April 24th and coming back May 13!  It should be fantastic.  I will be visiting London, the Forest of Dean, Wolverhampton, Burton-on-Trent, Nottingham, Durham, York, Edinburgh, and Ireland!  (all subject to change, of course.)  Yay, it should be great!  And its in only 5 weeks!!!!